Hi Everyone!!
So I decided my first post here should be about how I went from a newly graduated/licensed 19 year old esthetician to a 19 year old diabetic in the matter of 2 weeks. Currently I do not work, but let me explain that a little bit. OK, so I left my job last year when I decided to go to esthetics school, I was working in retail and honestly it was God that I left when I did.. the environment was toxic to my heart. I took a month break between work and school and began Esthetician school January of 2015. When I got to school I absolutely loved it, I was learning all these interesting things and I wanted to take it all in absorb it like a sponge. Well fast forward 7 1/2 months and I was already graduating. I was SO excited to graduate and begin my career, things were just going great. Well August 12th I left that school for the last time, I scheduled my tests to get my license and I was good to go. I passed my written late August and scheduled my practical, learning I had to wait OVER a month for an opening. What did I do? Well I paid for my test and waited. I was having quite a bit of lower back pain for weeks, I am not one to go to the doctor very much but my pain was so excruciating I finally caved and went to my doctor on September 2, 2015. That was when the devil tried to make me believe EVERYTHING was going wrong in my amazing time of accomplishments. I went in and told my Nurse Practitioner what was going on and how I felt. Immediately she said “okay, let’s do a urine test to make sure it’s not a kidney infection” I thought to myself “oh wow yeah that’s a great idea” so they took my sample and all of a sudden that room felt very eery and that office seemed to shuffle around me. A nurse came in and said we’re going to check a little blood from your finger, I knew it was a blood glucose meter because I had seen them before. I looked at her confused and said okay… and at the moment she walked out the door she said “wouldn’t that be something.. come in for back pain, leave with diabetes.” My mind began to race.. “diabetes… what is she talking about” my heart was racing and I was panicking. A few minutes later the NP came back in and looked me in the eye and said “you have diabetes” *PAUSE* what in the world is this woman talking about.. I’m only 19 I’m healthy I came in for pain medication for my back.. something went wrong this had to be false. Well you guys.. it wasn’t false. I broke down to tears and then pulled myself together as she explained what we were going to do. I was fine until I got to my car, I broke down to tears as I felt my life was changing forever. I didn’t know what to do or who to call so I called my boyfriend Xzavier. I told him what was going on and he listened and told me to breather and relax and to get home. I dropped off my prescription, got lunch and went home. My mom was home this day, before I walked in that house I told myself I was fine, that I wasn’t going to cry, that I was okay. I walked inside and avoided the topic as much as possible but as i began telling her what they said I broke down and cried… she was in denial. She didn’t want to claim it. We made our endocrinologist appointment and they confirmed I have diabetes and that my sugars were WAY TOO HIGH. Well now 2 months later, I check my sugar 4-6 times a day and I take insulin shots twice a day. I have to be careful with LOW blood sugars now. But, I’m learning and I am learning to keep it under control. Some days are hard because I just want my old lifestyle back, but I know that isn’t possible because now I have a new quality, I have diabetes. Now, I know that IT IS OKAY. I thank God for my life everyday, and how he has brought me closer to him. Never let the devil bring you down, it does get better.
XOXO,
Tracy
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